THE BETRAYAL: Episode 46 Hard Decision

  

Previously on  THE BETRAYAL: Episode 45 Disoriented Mind

I really can't believe he forgave you” he murmured, breaking the silence between us. “Yea because he loves me alot” I replied proudly, “I know you won't if you were in his shoes” I accused. “I have to get going, it's already getting very late.

“So what happens to us?” he asked curiously, “Mike abeg there is no us, I thought you promised to wait eternity for me nah? Just keep waiting even if it means waiting till next life” I said a bit coldly,

I instantly snatched my hand. I eyed him silently and trying once again to leave his car. “Cyndy wait” he commanded calmly. 
I obeyed and stopped. “I really can't believe you went back to him after what happened last night between us, so you will continue sleeping with him as if nothing happened abi?” he asked. 
“Pls don't insult me” I replied and tried to alight from his car, but he quickly drew forward.

“What if at the end it didn't work out between you guys? Can you live with the memory that you had the opportunity to set things right??” he asked. “I know you do love me, I know I still have the treasure I took away from you the very first time we had fun.

Ben knows that, he equally knows you don't love him as much as you love me. 
He equally knows he's fighting a lost battle, and he is harbouring something which you are blind to notice.

What will you do if he finally abandons you at a point where there is no turning back?” he asked. I silently shook nervously, 
“please Mike stop talking rubbish ” I murmured. “I tell you the truth, do you think he will ever forget the confession you made ?? I tell you, he will never forget it.

He simply begged because he had no choice, because he had his dignity to protect. You can doubt me, but I swear you will remember this moment later'', he said, while I coloured and shook immensely.

His words were hurting but I couldn't find the strength to run away, my ears eagerly listened. I have explored the world and returned because I discovered how unique you are, can you swear he will return when he graduates and stays with the memory of your exploits buried in his head?'' 
He asked.

“I can't lie! I know we both love each other, but do forget the silly remark I made about waiting eternity for you. I can wait two weeks for you to think over all I said and decide if to continue with him or start all over with me. That's all I can say for now my dear, so please don't hurt our future'', he concluded.

I breathed deeply, summoned up my strength and left. “I now have only two weeks to make the final decision and choose between the guy I love and the guy I owe my happiness, which way??”, 
hmmmm

** In Amara's room **

“I really don't know what to tell you, besides, my advice doesn't count. Does it?” Amara asked after listening to all I told her concerning Ben and Mike. “I really won't involve myself in your affairs any longer, just follow your heart” she said.

Mike really was the person my heart yearned for and following him could bring my troublesome spirit to rest, but how to make Ben understand was another problem which I truly didn't know how to face. It was very obvious he truly loved me, because he sacrificed alot for my happiness and even forgave me when I cheated on him. But my greatest fear was that his love could fade with time, perhaps when nature begins showing itself on me. 
The age difference between us wasn't that much and I knew with time my physical appearance would change much more than his. What if he doesn't get employed? What if he later changes his mind about me, will I be able to make up for the lost time? Will I be able to fall in love again? Can I ever forgive myself? No I can't take such a risk”, I concluded thoughtfully.

“Campus Love affairs are nothing but a fantasy life we create and plunge our youthful life in just for fun, pride and experimentation. It mostly has no longevity”. However, due to the great respect and commitment I felt for Benjamin, I made up my mind to be with him till the end of his degree exams, because I knew i won't be able to forgive myself if he lost concentration on his studies because of me.

But Benjamin thought all was settling for good between us and began spoiling me with gifts once again. At first I declined accepting them, but he kept insisting until I finally caved in. We cooked, played and gisted like we used to, but the only thing I denied him was sex. I refused him access to my body but it never bothered him because of his forthcoming degree exams which he was preparing himself both mentally and spiritually for.

*TWO WEEKS LATER*

6pm on a Monday evening, I sat beside Mike in his car, breathing quickly as I prepared myself to tell him my decision. 
Truly whatever agreement we were to reach that fateful evening will decide my fate and destiny. It equally was the last day he gave me to make up my mind. 
“God alone knows our destiny”

STORY CONTINUES....

What decision do you think Cyndii will take? Do you think Ben forgivness is a way of taking his revenge on Cyndii

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Story Adaobi Iwuchukwu

Edited by Engr. Stanley Orji

Published on Eastanmusic Ent.